the effing economy. because i'm not sure what else is blame-able.
i’m probably not moving to boston this summer.
i’m probably not going to my dream school.
i’m probably stuck at the crummy local college for who knows how long.
i don’t know what i’m going to do. i’ve applied to 5 cvs photo centers, three starbucks, three stores in the mall, the black cow..
i saved all 500$ from my graduation card from my grandparents.
i’m probably stuck here.
i’m so distraught and sincerley, plain, sad. how are we all supposed to get an education when no one can afford it? i’m going to a shit college (shit in comparison to the ART school i was supposed to go to) to pay money for classes i don’t want or need, to be miserable. to live at home and be treated as a child, still, most likley. and then, what if i NEVER can afford my dream school? i graduate from my lowly community college and never get anywhere with my dreams and aspirations? i am not going to be exposed to the kind of inspirational art classes, artistic exploration, variety of classes and opportunities of a new life in a city. i am not getting the kind of art education i need to be successful if i have to go to this community college.
why is this happening to me? i just want to learn how to weld and develop color film and paint and learn new editing programs and ..sculpt clay.
why is that so difficult? why does everything need to be so expensive?